i used to
i used to be want to be a writer, with my name in print on the kind of publications that represent intellectual stamina. i used to want to be well-known, as if to say being recognized by the so-and-so's on the street would cause my lack of self-esteem to disintegrate. i used to be want to be a rockstar, because the definition of true artistic ability is the instance someone get your song stuck in their head. i used to want to be rich so that i could live without hardship or want. i used to want to be married by now, but with my inability to be known by others, it's for the best that i am still single.i've grown up a bit over the last few years. a number of those grandeur things i used to want have left the forefront of my mind. call me an underachiever, call me what you will. the public eye is now undesirable, and a life without struggle is meaningless. i may never achieve fame and i may never see riches. but i think at this point, i will be content with having daily bread on the table and health in my bones. i don't have too many rock songs written, but i'd be content with continual prayer on my lips or words of truth out of my mouth, letting my "yes be yes and my "no" be no. and i may not be married, may not be known by many people at all. but i am confident in the person that i am becoming because the definition and intricacies are coming from the voice of the One who loves me well.
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