so help me God
i've allowed myself to go several weeks without writing. this should be a very clear sign to me and everyone else that i have done a very poor job of allowing my mind to catch up with my body. i sit here and it seems that my mind is completely blank - no thought provoking ideas, no new lyrics or lines, no funny stories from my childhood. in all honesty, the only thing that is in my mind right now is "so help me God" by DC Talk: "so help me God, to put my faith in you/ so help me God, before i come unglued/ call it my addiction, i can't get enough of you/ so help me God, to put my faith in you"."unglued" would be the right term for my current state. there is a certain point of busyness that one reaches in which the person's thoughts, desires and pains all become brushed to the side. this is new york city. i am sure anyone i come across can relate. don't get me wrong, i enjoy learning and a good challenge. and i did not enter into school for nothing - there is great purpose in why i've taken the plunge. yet i am seeing the consequences of the laziness i used to have when it came to studying and discipline. it is a great feat for me to focus in, especially when there are always people around to engage in and to be with. i love being with others so much.
so for now, i take Paul's advice: "I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize." (I Cor. 9:27) as much as i promote discipline, i will be disciplined. as much as i claim to love learning, i will focus my mind and absorb all that is required to do well in my studies. in the end, i know that my times of rest and play will be sweeter as i've done all i can to work hard, with precision and excellence.
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